losing steam...

So I got a job..yipppeee

I should be excited to go back to work but I feel discouraged. Between my self image issues and my thyroid problem taking over my whole body I feel like I am losing steam.
The good news is we found a nanny I like a lot. She was very friendly, a little crazy, but very real.

Once I posted the ad for a nanny I received a TON of emails..including this one, that I just HAVE to share. I mean is this girl crazy? I mean who writes such a long email? What 18 year talks like this????
No i didn't hire her..

Subject line: Mary Poppins looking for the right family

This is exactly what I have been looking for! I am an 18 year old student attending PVCC and have just taken the semester off to try and get more stable (financially) and figure out what exactly I would like to major in. I was attending to get my associates in applied science. I plan to be a firefighter. Which means yes I have taken hazardous materials courses, cpr, first aid classes and can provide you with certificates to show I have completed the courses. I love children and have babysat all through my younger years and worked in a Christian based preschool when I was 17. There I led the one's class which included some twos who weren't just quite ready to move up :). In the afternoons I took over the school agers class and LOVED it. I adore baby's to death but really am intrigued by school agers. It reminds me to enjoy every bit of life and how much their little minds do absorb. Children are our future and I am excited to see what this generation will bring. I have younger brother who has just turned 10 years old and truly inspires me to do my best in everything I do. I want to be a great role model to not just him but any children I come in to contact with, to really make them believe anything they dream can become a reality. I guess this thinking has played a huge role in my career choice I want to help and do my part as much as any one person can. I am currently living at home with my parents and younger brother and our three dogs (I failed to mention I am also a huge animal lover!). I did attempt the living on my own thing for about six months and disappointed to share I failed slightly. I wasn't ready financially and I believe this is because I couldn't find a job I was happy at. I want to be appreciated at my work place and really feel I am making a difference and helping. Working with children is the only time I have ever felt significant and helpful and I like to think I made those children feel the same. I show them they are important and loved no matter what and are the key to all of our smiles :) . I would love to meet you and your children and assure you if I am chosen to work for your family I will establish a relationship with the children that will keep me their for as long as you will let me. I hate to see children being bounced around and would never want them to feel as if they were not good enough for me and I left them. I know it will not take long to establish a connection, children are the sweetest most loving people and I want them to know they can feel that towards me and I will cherish it and never take advantage of it. I know children aren't angels at every moment of everyday I have definitely learned from them and my patience has grown tremendously. They love to test, especially your patience and have learned thats okay they are kids! I hope to learn more about yourself and your children and to be considered as a caretaker for your children. I do have my own transportation and am okay with picking up children or using my vehicle to go out and get anything for you when needed. I really want to make a difference and if that includes taking some weight off your shoulders than I am the one for you. I look forward to hearing back from you and if you have any other questions for me please feel free to call or email back. Thank You